Me, Me, Me

I want. I don't need the boys to be here. I want them. I want the hot air balloons floating over our heads and the leaves falling from the trees onto our feet and the kids at the playground seeing us as we trample out of the car and onto the equipment.

As much as I enjoy the kids at school - I want to be with my child - my husband.

I know I will soon.

Sometimes, soon isn't soon enough.

ughh

i feel hideous. am i pregnant? will i make it until the end of the week without caving and buying a test?

will i make it until the end of may before caving and running into the hills from this chaos at work?

come on june 4th. don't leave me in a lurch. get me out in the mountains and in a healthier state of mind. screw the fucked up files and audits.

screw the termination process and paperwork.

screw wondering if my things will be intact at calverton in the fall.
screw wondering if i will be intact at calverton in the fall.

screw towson and the ongoing netherworld of equality that doesn't exist in credentialing.
give me that old fashioned summer break.

gimme gimme!