what it amounts to is that there is a fine line between insight (what we are willing to own of what we do and our willingness to reflect on it) and intrepretation (what makes us entitled/eligible to be the expection - and where we define ourselves within a systemic ethical framework.

Can you confidently say you are MORE right or MORE aware than anyone else? is this an act of rejecting me and avoiding me b/c she feels i am not stating my stance about her dilemma of summer school coordinator being defined on a timeline or as a role.

Within that, the conflict that this is someone who has CONSISTENTLY said "I do the job, and I am not defined by a contract".

1. what does the contract say?

2. what do you think your expectations of yourself are?  (not WHAT are they, what do you think of them and your responsibility to them?)


yes, it is implied that you are responsible for meeting expectations.

is that reasonable?


do i rely on you a lot for guidance and do i overtalk my process? yes - and i can work on that. if that is something that is getting harder, please say so. i can hear it.

time and time again you tell me - 'see you can do it' and i continue to lean on you. it is time for me to be more confident and assured that i will continue to do things with integrity.

As long as I continue to do things with integrity.

That is my struggle - and it is not always easy to identify OR navigate integrity when the heat is turned up.



which would i rather struggle with more? a lack of confidence. why? b/c struggles with my responsibilities for expectations is not something i can argue - and it is humbling to come face to face with that.

maybe you feel that me teaching AND counseling is an example of the same thing.



i hope we can talk about this and come out in one piece on the other side.

i think we can....

i need more time.